So looking forward to the weekend.
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Thursday, April 30, 2015
Wednesday, April 29, 2015
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Quest
When James and I were talking tonight: We talked about his girlfriend, Karen, and I am so happy he has someone but I am giving up my quest to find my best friend who just happens to be the person I want to spend all my days and more importantly my nights with. I am very lucky to have some good friends I love and love me, unconditionally.
Vegetable Soup
Last night, I made some vegetable soup and it turned out to be fantastic. June ate some of it at work and thought it was great too. Simple things like good soup make all the difference sometimes.
Lost
Got lost yesterday trying to get to the gym so I missed the weight lifting class I wanted to go to. I had done cardio at lunch so it was probably a good thing.
Sunday, April 26, 2015
Excuse
I had to use the excuse that I don't really have time for a relationship on someone today. I felt kind of bad about it because when someone used that on me I knew he was lying but I didn't want to tell the guy that there isn't one thing appealing about him. And I had told him that 34 is way too young for me and I would consider being friends maybe but I would not date him. Anytime, I tell a guy I'm not interested it's like catnip or something. Of course, the last guy I liked practically left tire tracks in the parking lot here at my apartment complex he was trying to get away so fast. I guess if ever meet anyone I'm attracted to i better not act like I am interested it always backfires. I need to get better at the game or I'll be on the bench just like phys ed dodge ball.
Saturday, April 25, 2015
This morning
I did cardio blast and hit the farmer's market again. A successful Saturday morning. Now, I need to decide if I am going to venture out this evening.
Nick's opinion
Nick called me today. He sent me a couple new songs he is recording with Gil's son. And he brought up the 29 year old guy again and asked if I have decided what I am going to do. I told him that it seems like all my girlfriends think I should go out with the guy I don't think I'm interested in going out with a guy who is only four years older than him. It also seems like some of them don't think it's gross for the guy to be talking dirty to me but I don't like it besides telling me he has a big penis he was describing what he wanted to do to me which is not cool. I don't even know the guy. He stopped to help me with my trash at my apartment complex. Another thing is that I don't think it's good to go out with a neighbor, It's too easy for the guy to monitor every move and spy on me. Nick said that he thought I might be excited about the prospect of going out with a young guy. I said, "No, I'm not. I don't even know if I want to go out with anyone right now because I work too much to devote any time to a relationship." Nick said that he thinks I deserve better than some guy who just sees me when there's a bike race in the town where I live. He thinks I deserve someone who wants to be with me. I said that he's right and that the guy who would come around to see me if there was a bike race was doing that so no one would know he was with me or at least that was what seemed to be going on. Nick asked why someone would do that and I told him I wasn't sure but it did seem the guy didn't want anyone to know he was with me and it may have been he was embarrassed by me or still married but it was a good lesson. I would only want to go out with someone on a real date if he acted proud to be on a date with me not embarrassed to be with me.
Discovery
I made a discovery about myself this week. I don't like for a man to talk dirty to me. Some of it may be that I think talk is cheap and don't like or respect those who talk the talk and don't walk the walk but as I said in a post a couple of days ago everyone thinks they're good in bed so if some guy tells me I'm great in bed it's all I can do to keep from laughing. Who would tell someone I'm not good in bed but I'm a great dancer. Or, I'm not good in bed but I'm a great public speaker with an excellent sense of humor. More than once men have told me that they have big penises which is not a strong selling point for me either. I've posted before about the dangers of large penises if the likes and dislikes aren't in line. It's been my experience and the experience of the women I know that most men are not skilled or intuitive when it comes to pleasing the fairer sex and worst of all we have noticed men don't seem to care if we're enjoying the experience. It's all about the conquest, once that's complete then that's it, they're off to the next conquest unless they're the obsessive stalkery type. It's odd but it seems like there is not any in between. There aren't any middle of the road, normal guys. Maybe the hunter and the stalker are the normal guys and there's not any in between.
Friday, April 24, 2015
L-lysine
After being sick for over one year, taking L-lysine stopped the recurring blisters I kept having if I ate nuts, tomatoes, salsa, and many other foods. It was a life changer.
Lately
I'm enjoying Louie C.K. and listening to the rain. It's a nice Friday night on top of a great Friday day. I had some quality time with my friends and my chaise arrived. The guys who delivered it were total dipshits though. After refusing to take advice from any of us probably because we are women, the guys left and left the chaise in the way and my living room in disarray. We even asked if the guys would try going out of the glass sliding door in the living room onto the balcony and through the balcony door into the second bedroom which is what we did as the were driving away. It is going to be nice to get a little more organized.
The last couple of days everyone has told me that I am looking so much better and that the weight I've gained has made such an improvement so they have really fed my ego. I don't think I look better but it's nice that other people are liking it and saying so. Maybe I look happier since I am not stuck in Killeen, the asshole of the U.S. Vivi thinks I look like I have some muscle now.
The last couple of days everyone has told me that I am looking so much better and that the weight I've gained has made such an improvement so they have really fed my ego. I don't think I look better but it's nice that other people are liking it and saying so. Maybe I look happier since I am not stuck in Killeen, the asshole of the U.S. Vivi thinks I look like I have some muscle now.
Deciding
I am trying to decide if I should go out with the 29 year old. Of course, all of my girlfriends think I should.
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Talking dirty
Coincidentally, Nick asked if I had heard from the 29 year old lately when he called me tonight. Nick said he was just calling to say, "Goodnight". I told him that it was a big coincidence that he was asking because I had just heard from the 29 year old and he was trying to talk dirty to me and I said "Don't go trying to talk dirty to me because everyone thinks they're great in bed. No one thinks they suck in bed." And, of course, Nick, being a fan of my sense of humor if not my biggest fan, laughed. And said he thinks it's funny to say I've got a little penis just to see what someone's reaction is. I said that's not funny. And I don't even like ginormous penises. They are dangerous in my opinion, especially as selfish as some people can be.
Posse
Finally, my posse will be here tomorrow. I am so excited to see someone I know and love and not the self important pieces of shit I am sometimes subjected to in my ordinary and somewhat small life.
29 year old
My neighbor who is 29 asked me out and I am trying to decide if that is too young for me, my son is 25 and I am 53. One time Gil told me to go out with younger guys and used Demi Moore as her empirical evidence that older women and younger men make sense and of course, I replied that I am not Demi Moore. I told Nick about my neighbor and expected some kind of remark from him but he didn't act like it is a big deal at all.
Admin day
Last night, after staring at flowers for 30 minutes and making no decision because I didn't know Nai's favorite flower and I feel one should if purchasing flowers for someone, at least, know and purchase the recipient's favorite, I decided to make fruit pizza, which sounds really gross but was a huge hit. To make fruit pizza, I use sugar cookie doe for the crust (it helps if it sits out for about 30 minutes or an hour to soften) which I spread on a cookie sheet or round pizza pan, hence the name, then I bake it and make sure it is good and done. I spread cream cheese on top of the cookie doe after it has cooled. There are many different ways to top the fruit pizza but this morning topped the fruit pizza with cherry pie/turnover filling spread over the cream cheese then I put mandarin oranges and pineapple on top of the cookie doe, cream cheese and cherry turnover filling. I usually don't bake things for work bur chose to do it and it was a very popular dish. Nai said she had 5 pieces. The best combo is strawberries and bananas on top of strawberry jam and cream cheese with sugar cookie doe as the crust. Yum.
Planning my Route 66 get away
I am determined to go on my Route 66 trip this year. I want Gil and my mom to go, 3 Musketeers.
Work
Harold told me that he hopes I stay with regard to continuing to working with him. I thought it was very sweet of him. I really enjoy two of the people I work with and overall it is a completely different environment than my experience in Corpus Christi.
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
The day after
Yesterday, June and I made a pact to leave work by 6:00 P.M. (no more staying late, except for the exception of one night a week including meetings). The first night of the new leaf I turned over and I didn't leave work until almost 8:00 P.M. I just keep reminding myself that I should be glad I have a job. And this job is better than the job I had before this one even if I am away from everyone I know.
Monday, April 20, 2015
Palm Reader
I ran into a palm reader at the Women's Expo, who said that I was broken hearted but that my wish for good health and happiness for my family would come true. She also said I would move but she she didn't know where.
6 P.M.
June and I made a pact today, from now on we are leaving work by 6:00 P.M. staying later than 6:00 P.M. due to our workload is permitted one day a week only. And if either of us has a late meeting then that counts as the one day a week. June has told me before that I am never going to meet a man working all the time and that may be true, I don't know. But I told her today she should leave earlier so she can spend time with her family. June's husband adores and wants to spend time with her. There are lots of people who would love to have a spouse who wanted be with them instead of without them. And, there are lots of parents whose kids don't want to hang out with them at all and June's boys adore her. i told her to enjoy it while she can. We'll see how long it lasts. I am going to try to get home at a decent hour from now on. A couple of people told me to stop staying at work so late today though so it was on my mind, and June had seen one of former coworkers in the hospital which reminded her just how precious every moment is.
I was a little disappointed that most of the Women's Expo exhibits were hair straighteners, fingernail polish, laser lypo, etc. I was wishing there would be some nutrition exhibits, mammogram exhibits, healthy food exhibits...If someone from a foreign country went to the exhibit he/she would think women are extremely superficial in this country. I like girly stuff too but I am also concerned about my health, career and finances. And, the creme de la creme I thought would be Patti Stanger, The Millionaire Matchmaker. She is funny and bombastic but I was a little put off when she said, "Face it, men are about one thing and one thing only." And she pointed at he coochie area and then her bootie. She said that women are looking for love and men are looking for a piece of ass. I do think that is true some of the time but not all of the time. If a man meets a woman he genuinely loves and cares about that's not true at all. And that is selling men short. When a guy meets a woman he loves everything changes. men are not heartless. My friends, who are men are more sensitive than my female friends. Of course, at our age, it could just be that they are low on testosterone.
Sunday, April 19, 2015
Women's Expo
Again when I went to the gym to do yoga it was cancelled. After returning home, I tried to start getting organized for my new chaise to arrive Friday. And then, the event i was waiting on: Women's Expo. I was excited about hanging out with June and a couple of people. And I was stoked about seeing the Millionaire Matchmaker, Patti Stanger.
Saturday, April 18, 2015
Purchase
Besides my great finds at the Farmer's Market, I bought a chaise for the spare bedroom. It's big, probably the size of a twin bed. I have to organize the bedroom and make some room since it's going to be delivered Friday. I'm excited about reorganizing.
Great Saturday
I went to Cardio Blast, the Farmer's Market and Dollar General. I am having a great Saturday. It's time for a soak in a hot tub, potting my lavender, rosemary and herbs.
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Sunday, April 12, 2015
Again
It is raining again. I had no idea it rained as much as it does here. When I lived in Corpus I missed the rain because it was rare and being from Oklahoma I was used to a good number of storms in the Spring. Now, I am tired of it raining all the time. I remember driving here a few times a while back and it was raining about half of those so I wasn't prepared for all this rain. I bought The Sun Also Rises yesterday when I was exploring in Brenham so maybe it's a good day to recover and read. I am not as sore as I thought I would be from the Diva Dash.
OKCupid find for Gil
This guy said hi to me on OKCupid so I read his profile. He sounded perfect for Gil so I asked her if it would be ok to pass on her phone number she said it would. Yesterday after my trip I asked him about it and what he would think of calling her. He wrote back and said he is looking and would be interested. This morning, I passed on her phone number to him. Maybe when she comes to visit they can meet.
Saturday, April 11, 2015
Friday, April 10, 2015
Thursday, April 9, 2015
Austin Diva Dash
I was going to head to Austin tonight but bad weather is coming so I cancelled my reservation for this evening and will go tomorrow. I was kind of wishing I had someone fun to go tonight so maybe it's good thing. I'm excited about the Diva Dash. It's the first time I have ever done anything like this. Quite a few of ladies from work are going so it should be good for bonding.
Wednesday, April 8, 2015
Monday, April 6, 2015
Also
It seems many God fearing men on OKCupid also have a fear of spell check. Examples upon request if necessary.
Sunday, April 5, 2015
Continuing the movie fest
I just started The Theory of Everything and finished Nightcrawlers. Though Nightcrawlers was good and Jake Gyllenhaal was fantastic (he played a crazy person brilliantly) it was a bit predictable.
Easter
I never celebrate Easter. I hate it; when I was little, maybe four years old, my dad kidnapped us and it is one of my lingering memories of a childhood not worth repeating, and my very dear friend, Father Victor, died on Easter. It is my least favorite holiday.
When the most memorable family vacation is the one when your dad kidnapped you, you had a shitty childhood.
When the most memorable family vacation is the one when your dad kidnapped you, you had a shitty childhood.
Two different men
I don't know one single woman who has read Fifty Shades of Grey however, last week, two different men told me they read it. I asked why and they both said they wanted to see what all the hoopla was about and they thought it might be helpful. They are both married. One of my observations about both of the men is that they both adore their wives and go to great lengths to make them happy. One of the men told me that his wife has told him they would not even be together if he had not been so persistent. Every day he would ask his wife out and every day she would say no. Finally, due to his perseverance his future wife said yes she would go on a date with him and the rest is history. It makes me think that if the man is crazy about the woman then the relationship has a greater chance of ending in death than divorce.
Birthday
On my birthday, I talked to so many friends and most asked what my plans were. i said I was just happy to be able to stay home and I was glad I didn't have to work. Even Marty said he couldn't believe I wasn't doing anything. I told him that I didn't want to go do anything by myself. Marty being the kind of person he is said he couldn't believe the guy I went out with a few times didn't take me to dinner. I told Marty that he doesn't want to take me to dinner or talk to me or anything else; he doesn't like me and in fact he dislikes me very much. Marty doesn't get that not all people are like him and make an effort to nurture relationships.
Every time
When it rains I am reminded that I need to go get another umbrella. I liked the one I had but apparently I loaned it to the wrong person. Another learning experience.
Impossible
Right now, it seems impossible to find a middle aged, middle of the road, who is not a religious fanatic or a drunk, bald, white guy, with a job, a car...Maybe I should write down what I am looking for in my profile and then men who don't fit that description won't write me. It could be that I am just asking for too much.
Last night
When Gil called to say she was prepping for her family Easter dinner and tell me about my birthday present she will be sending, she said she might hit up Jeremy for beer and sex. I told her she should because that sounded like a great idea. And Jeremy really does care about her. I hope she cares about him even though she says she doesn't. I still don't know why she flipped out on him New Year's Eve. It really upset him though. I remember being heart broken for him. It's rough when someone dismisses you and you don't even know what you did. He kept asking me if I knew but I told him that if I interfered she'd be even more pissed that he had talked to me about it. At least they're hanging out again so they each have a buddy whether they're having sex or not. I's rather have a friend than FWB anyway.
Odd
One of the strange things I noticed in the Houston area is that all these guys on OKCupid and POF have young kids. These guys are all old enough to have grandchildren but they're still raising children. Most of the women I know don't want anything to do with a guy who is still raising children.
Interstellar
By far, the best movie I rented over the Easter holiday was Interstellar. Vishal had recommended it and I'll have to tell him that he was right to recommend it for me. Two movies I've seen with Matthew McConauhey movies were very good, Dallas Buyers Club and Interstellar.
Saturday, April 4, 2015
The End
I didn't like the end of Birdman. I hate it when I become vested in a book or movie and the end is a let down. On the other hand, the end of Seeking S Friend For The End Of The World is perfect. It is true to the story. This evening I am going to watch Interstellar.
That's love
Gil asked how I got home from my colonoscopy and I told her I didn't schedule because they would not let me take a cab home. Gil said I need to schedule it so that she can take me a bring me home while she's visiting me. That's love.
The Hollies
One of my favorite love songs by The Hollies is in Seeking A Friend For The End Of The World; The Air That I Breathe
Sample of what some men say they're looking for
Qualities I Find Attractive
You attempt to put God first, you believe that the husband / wife relationship can be the ultimate human experience, you are quick to listen and slow to judge, you treat all living things with respect, you believe all disputes need to be resolved by sundown, you derive pleasure from pleasing your partner, you properly maintain your body, you remember to say thank you, you strive to speak with your actions, you seize opportunities to defend others who are unable to defend themselves, you love God with all your heart and soul!
You attempt to put God first, you believe that the husband / wife relationship can be the ultimate human experience, you are quick to listen and slow to judge, you treat all living things with respect, you believe all disputes need to be resolved by sundown, you derive pleasure from pleasing your partner, you properly maintain your body, you remember to say thank you, you strive to speak with your actions, you seize opportunities to defend others who are unable to defend themselves, you love God with all your heart and soul!
Movie
Seeking A Friend For The End Of The World is coming on HBO and I have to watch it. I absolutely can't resist it. My son and I saw the movie a few years ago when he was visiting me in Corpus Christi. We both loved it. I remember he said It really made him think about who he wanted to be with when he saw it.
Friday, April 3, 2015
Birthday Hangout With Nick
I had such a great conversation with Nick. Hangouts is so handy. It makes it so easy to keep in touch.
Thursday, April 2, 2015
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
Work
June was practically kicking me out of the office tonight and then went to the Assistant Director and said that she was saying to me that I'll never get a boyfriend because I stay at work too late.
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